Someone asked me what my path was today. Tarika... the path to the center.
So I told them...
My path started with Zen. A simple Zen tennis coach that somehow told me to see the ball and be the ball, and everything disappeared and opened up my field of vision so that satori could open.
A year later I was a young man traveling in India in the Himalayas meeting with monks, the Dalai Lama, Vipassina meditation and soon after intense Sadhana with Osho while living at the commune for the next five years. Dynamic meditation came, tons of transformational sessions, two years of psychic body cleansing through a unique shamanic ketamine process, a ton of kinesiology spiritual release sessions, tons of devotion, meditation, inquiry, years of dynamic meditation, spontaneous gayatri chanting and worship and just when the time was right my goddess Durga sent me off to a humble Japanese prison cell for a humble monk like me to meditate, chant, do yoga and reiki, and encounter profound shadow work. Then after that there was one perfect encounter with a perfect mirror of a guru and one sweet encounter with mother Meera.
Interspersed were journeys, sub journeys, shamanic estramonio, tantric deva's, Kundalini crowns, blissful babas, masterful madness, crazy wisdom and creative destruction.
Someone then asked me, 'if it woke up in you, you must have great power now?'. Certainly I have the greatest power....... the power to let go of power... the power to just be a slob again. The power not to exert power and spaces upon myself and others. The power not to be trapped by the subtleties of spiritual ego, and its radiant glow.
I was at the beach the other day with some friends playing soccer, and a very glowing spiritual man walked up to me radiating love and light and I said hi and asked where he was from, and he pronounced 'I Am from Existence.' and then he asked where I was from. So I told him that I am from North Vancouver originally. Then he stated for me and the woman that was with him, 'Brother, have you not learned yet that you are not just of a place and that you are from existence.' And I told him that in my own experience, once you come full circle you can just talk normal again and allow the amazingness of it all to be simple and ordinary once again.
He looked quite deflated all of a sudden and said quickly and nervously.... 'oh you have come full circle already. I did not realize this and gave me a deep deep spiritual probing, whereupon I just looked back at him like a spiritual slob and then he cantered off to do some yoga and other spiritual exercises with his friend.
The power to be ordinary again has great value and purpose when it is complete.
Until that moment we need to make every single effort of totality. Once you have made the effort in a total way, you will slowly gravitate into a stillness that unwinds you to the very core. It may not even feel good, but it will reveal the absolute total of you, the absolute simple core of your being. And you will not be able to control any part of it, much less use any part of it for personal loss and gain. The End of your World, is a sweet self destructive bliss that rewards you with nothing, over and over again.
Hari Om Tat Sat