The First very deep insight during my time in prison was Surrender. Surrender totally. The moment I was caught I gave up all ambition to escape anything in life anymore and the rest was just a huge and massive device for me to surrender all of myself, all of the games, all of the stories, all of the falsehood and all of life. The meditations that I did and experienced in prison were vast and many. I did Vipassina everyday and yoga for hours upon hours and all manner of Osho meditations that I could as well as mantra chanting to purify my heart. All of these meditations were rather minor in comparison to the greater context of the experience. The forced surrender of the soul to that which it surely resisted and tries to avoid at all cost. The effects were total and absolute and slowly slowly over time I had to look at my every game that I played with myself and others. You can call it a slow cook of types. A gentle slow brew that is both refining and purifying. Impurities would be forced to arise and I would again and again be forced to look at that which I most deeply sought to avoid at all cost in the past. Absolutely everything that I had previously projected outwards was forced back upon me. It is hard to blame life for anything when you know totally and absolutely that you are life.
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